2020 - August Update

 After a week of bankrupcy talks, and suggesting that we probably will go bankrupt and then we will probably go BK11 to keep our jobs and then officially thinking we will not go bankrupt, and then the board telling us finally on Aug 19th that we will go bankrupt 7.

Alot of concerns from friends as I suggested it on fb, but surprisingly the negative thoughts have not overwhelmed me.  Can this be the God is in control and I know he is, or that I am self-confident in my abilities?  

There were a couple options to look into: back to the county and an ET1, or cal state Job developer.  I actually have been thinking how much the Immersion program goes against self-edification and behavior modification and less reliance on the Lord.  Nothing would be better than to find work that supports my faith in sharing and building up people's faith.  I suppose I need to be built up for that kind of work, or least God giving me the green light. If there is one thing I hope and pray for, that this next opportunity, would not simply be pulling a paycheck but that it can match up with my faith and perhaps have some excitement involved.  I don't know how much longer this world will last, but a life without my savior would be a meaningless life, and life of self-gratification, a life of envy, a life of self-indulgence.  A desire I have is to really do the word of God and experience his obedience.  Right now God has given me all I need.

I want to use this opportunity to trust in God, in something very real and practical.  God has sustained me this far, why should I believe he wouldn't sustain me further?  Devil may want to sift me, but God is my redeemer and provider.   

One thing I have been neglecting is God's word and prioritizing God's word has always been struggle.  Not b/c I don't get anything out of it, but I know it requires my full focus which always has been a challenge.  Lord renew my focus.  

-This morning, I was briefly listening to a sermon on time, God wants us to wait with patience the  Devil wants us to panic and desires instant gratification.  As a follower of Christ, patience and humility must be built up.   

-God has a plan, and nothing could be more rewarding than waiting at the feet of Jesus on what is next.  I need to pray that I can wait and the feet of Jesus and listen to his plan.  

-The one thing that really sticks out, and just read in psalms 25, is to let me not be ashamed.  Satan uses shame to dig deep into our insecurities and our soul.  

5/31/20

-Space shuttle launch, big for the US space scene
-got rejected to google's youtube, but glad I applied
-Zech just got a new bull dozer toy I got for free from CL
-Protest, from another Black African American getting killed from police

But somehow God has sustained me.
Ravi Zecherias passed away his funeral was pretty awesome

I got triple the workload but Maria got laid off

3/24/20 - Corona Virus outbreak

Corona Virus Quarantine thoughts:
first and foremost, praise God for helping us recognize we ARE NOT in control of our lives after all.  We generally do not control if we die, or if we live, HE, God/Jesus/Holy spirit decides this.  He is the Chief engineer, creator, designer, founder of this world.  He knows what makes or breaks this world.  Unfortunately, humankind, Christians/nonchristians, are getting a reality check right now. 

So much so, that we are now in a mode of living in anxiety/fear.  And one thing this pandemic has shown is our character that he has been molding all this time.  He has awakened us on who/what we trust.  Our bank accounts, our education/abilities/intellect/charisma?  I believe this according to the bible, is not our last days, but a merciful warning.  Even if it means, making us uncomfortable for a period of time, bringing some uncertainty.

This is a graceful/merciful strong warning, a reality check for His people, Christians to non-Christians to wake up and recognize the one true God.  There is only 1 true God that decides if we live and if we perish.  But perhaps those who have not tasted and experience him, may see God as a unmerciful God, a God who causes diseases to disrupt our lives, a cruel manipulative god.

But I'm convince this Corona virus, is hint of prophesy of what is to come.  We would not read / heed the warning of the bible, but rather live life, actions and pursue the ambitions of the world.  Perhaps some may think the word of God is a fairy tale that would never come.

We are NOT in control, some will wake up from their slumber(blindness, hardness toward God), others will continue to be blind and have the hardness of Pharoah as the bible explains in Exodus.
This Corona virus will wake "some" up and begin a hopeful depending, trusting relationship with the Lord Jesus Christ, who died for their sins and gave them eternal life(trust hope, protection, relationship).  At this time, we need some trust, people we love don't have corona virus, hope that this corona virus will be gone, protection that our shelter in place will prevent us from corona virus.  All of whom Jesus provides.  This is time for us to open up our hearts, eyes and ears for what God has mercifully revealed to us, through his word.

He is who has ears, let him hear!